Category: Therapy

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting

Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear

Here comes the sun, doo-doo, doo-doo, here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

– The Beatles

“Sam, hold on, I can’t move” I desperately called out.

“What?”

“I cannot move!!”

I was frozen in the parking lot of a supermarket and I needed some time.

That’s my first real memory of living with back pain, although I know that there were some other times before that.  I had been visiting one of my best friends in Carrollton more than 20 years ago and my back locking up was rare, but not an uncommon thing.  The pain left me, but then it would come back with revenge.

In 2014, a few months before my wedding, I was working out with a personal trainer when my back gave out as I was performing some deadlifts.  The pain was excruciating.  It felt as if thunderbolts were constantly striking my back and leaving a burning forest behind.  From then on, my back would not be the same for years.  The back pain would happen at any second, “whenever, wherever, we’re meant to be together” as a famous artist would sing.

In early 2017, I finally made my way to a chiropractor next door to my office.  Dr. Will performed x-rays and told me that my L5 lumbar and sacrum were almost fused since I was born.  He has helped relieve some of my pain since.  I did not feel my pain as constantly as before, but when I did, I wasn’t able to move or continue with my life as I wanted.